~Cthulhette

... of all the Organization ahead of me.

So, the good news is, I have a new laptop.

The bad news is, I have a new laptop because the hard drive and other stuff on my OLD laptop is completely corrupt/broken/FUBARED beyond warranty and my computer god friend's fixing.

So, this one is all up and working. I'll be able to recover all my programs thanks to my external hard drive and piracy. Of others. Of course. <_<

Bu-u-ut, since I was getting all comfy with my tablet, I had some pictures on my old computer that hadn't been backed up and were completely digital. So while I have MOST of my stuff, a large portion of it is gone in the wind. Also I've been on my Grama's desktop and my Coot's PC laptop so I'ma have to re-get-used-to the keyboard and shortcuts and such. Lame!

But I still have a legit copy of CS3, AND now I have Leopard.

Rarr!

Another time, another place, I see that old familiar face

And I try hard to catch your eye

Another road, another mile, I see that old familiar smile

But you'll be with somebody new

Another night, another day, I'll see you standing in my way

I'll stop and say "hello, my friend"

Another place, another time, you'll tell me you've been doing fine

And walk away from me once more.




.Stop.

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I don't want to waste anybody's time and energy, hell I'm not even sure anyone will read this. I'm not very active in the DeviantART community. I'm not very active in any community. I'm more of a watcher maybe?

But anyways, I'll keep it short and sweet.

I have mental illnesses, a few, mostly bipolar but there are a more. Anyways, last semester of college almost killed me, I wasn't learning, wasn't focusing, was just trying to survive until the end. I dropped a class, nearly failed another and didn't learn nearly as much as I wanted to. I made it out alive and passing, but I promised myself (and my professors) that if I wasn't better by the time school started up again I wouldn't be returning. There's no point in being there if my mind isn't there.

My therapist was thinking that summer would help, and it did for awhile but the shine has worn off and I'm pretty much feeling like I was before. Not a good sign.

So excuse no updates, and crappy art. My head hasn't really been right lately. I'm not really sure how the summer will go, how school will go, or if school even will go. It irks me to fail at life like this, but, I dunno. My therapist says, health first, school later. I agree.

Things are hard. I'm tired, sad and lonely.

I'm going back to bed.

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So, in an attempt to crank out more drawings, I started a blog where I post one sketch a day. I started it a week ago, and have managed to post one every day, (though a couple were a little late. ) Anyways, give it a look if you will. I've posted some of the better sketches here already. I've been drawing a lot more in general, too. That makes me happy. Yay art!

On said blog there's also a link to my other blog, which is for sketch studies. I'm planning a really big post there soon. Consider it a "scraps" section.

Give it a look.

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I don't like my style of drawing. I think it's too cartoony, too simple and plain, too anime, too... bad... to sell. I want to make comic books and graphic novels. I want my art to kick ass. Right now there's no way that could happen. So I want to change it.

I'll be practicing a lot, doing the *hides head* copying of artist I respect.

I want a new style.

I'm gonna go make one.